I lose if we win (2004)

Just finished reading this song before I posted it here and I can't seem to recollect the reasons behind most of what I wrote. What I do remember is that this song is about a string of bad incidents that took place in one of the relationships that did not work out.

I lose if we winYou should buy me roses
And pray that the weather is good
My house is just 20 miles from yours
Can you come when the sun burns bright?
I'll be waiting outside my door
Waiting to see if the burns are worth it

If you teach me wonders
Then I'll teach you some lessons as well
What d'ya know about the subject anyway?
"Well, atleast I know what subject it is"
I will study criss and I will study cross
I will study crass
But won't run amok for the dough
I'll just run when life ain't grand

You should kiss me darling
Cuz today I am feeling like so
And wear your clothes when I strike the whip
Don't you ever try to use me
Cuz I've already used you enough
You bemuse me with your shallowness
I only used him with mine
Good you told me its my business
I thought I'd be caught naked again

You should fuck me fool
So what if I'm pregnant with lies
I only crossed my fingers and
Killed your unborn child
This non-issue isn't one that's worth
Either wait for the daily poke
Or just look in my eye
It's only my why
And only when I

You don't understand you bastard
I ain't suppose to lose in any way
Cuz I know criss and I know cross
And you know crass
So don't try to make sense
For I'll hate you more the more you rationalize
Cuz I'm conditioned to believe that I've always won
But being a winner with no losers ain't no fun
So I trample you to be the only one.